OwO it's me! Can you believe the last piece I put here was a fucking
year ago? Well, here's more pride art for you! This time, I've decided
to do Aura again, since the last pride piece with xem was 3 years ago.
As you can see, I've got a more stable notion of my gender. Yep. I'm
genderfluid. Granted, that does kinda make "stable" relative, but still.
So, yeah. Relatively little has changed. That's an achievement, I
suppose. So, yeah. I'm here, I'm queer, I'm filled with existential
fear, but, hey, I got a cool fuckin' flag to wave around, so that's
neat. (I really do! I bought some pride flags a few months ago!)
Oh, and, uh...If you're wondering why Aura doesn't have on glasses like
normal, it's because...uh...they're broken. Yeah... Totally not
that I forgot to draw them... Ehe~
Me, again!
Drawn 18 June 2021
Gender is hard. Very hard. You know what makes trying to figure it out
even harder? Actually being genderfluid and not realizing it! So, yeah,
here's me. I'm a genderfluid kitsune!
You know what really makes trying to figure gender out hard? The
fact that, in a sense, my gender is "gay". Like, yes, I'm genderfluid,
but I tend to fluid towards the gender that makes me gayest. So, you
know, that didn' help when suddenly my desire to transition completely
disappeared because I suddenly become obsessed with boys. Yeah, knowing
I'm genderfluid (and *how* I'm genderfluid) really explains a lot.
So, yeah. Happy pride, y'all!
Lilix, Agender Incubus
Drawn 26 May 2021
Let me just start by saying, 2 pieces within a month of each other?!
What madness is this?!
Anyways, I did it. I done went and did it. I finally drew Lilix
properly. I mean, yeah, I've drawn faer before. If you were following me
on mastodon back in late 2019, you've seen faer before. But I've never
done anything with colour. That finally changes!!! Here fae is! In
colour!
I go into more detail about Lilix faerself over on
the Who Am I page, but I would just like to
take a moment to muse over the whole "incubus" thing. I mean, what makes
me an incubus? Like, sure, I'm a fuck demon. But incubus? The two
definitions I know of are that they're either male or tops/doms. I'm
definitely not male. This is literally titled agender incubus.
And, while I am a vers/switch, I have my preference, and it's not
towards topping/domming. So I'm not 100% sure what makes me an incubus,
but that's what I am.
I dunno what to call this so fuck it. Unnamed proxysona.
Drawn 11 May 2021
So, this'll take some backstory. Right, so a while back, I stumbled
across quotev, a site for hosting stories and quizzes like "Which dere
type are you?" (among other things). The userbase of this site, um, hews
young (like, teenagers) and edgy, shall we say? Originally, I was there
"ironically". You know, because I enjoyed laughing at the shit they came
up with. However, if you follow me over on the fediverse, you may
remember me explicitly remarking that, with me, if I start doing it
ironically, it will eventually stop being ironic. So it was with quotev.
Eventually, I legitimately enjoyed exploring the site (particularly the
quizzes) and seeing what the folx there could come up with. It wasn't
super refined, but it was authentic, and I absolutely love it.
So, right, I'm on the site this past weekend (incidentally trying to
find a good "Which dere type are you?" quiz for reasons I will not
disclose), when I end up in the creepypasta area. Now, I don't have much
experience with creepypastas. I know who Slenderman and Jeff the Killer
are, I'm rather familiar with SONIC.EXE, Tails Doll, and Lavender Town
Syndrome, and I'd heard of BEN DROWNED, but that's it. Before this
weekend, if you had asked me what a proxy was, I'd have given you the
computer answer ("I'm not 100% sure but they, like, route your web
traffic through another server, I think?"). So, yes, I find some story
quizzes. Not just any, no, no, no. Story quizzes that put you
(yes, you) in the role of someone who's been kidnapped as a
potential proxy. I'm too lazy to link it here, but I highly recommend
you go find The Proxy Trials, a 25-part series that I will say I
really enjoyed.
So, yeah, that one in particular stuck with me, and I can't stop
thinking about that kind of stuff now, so, as was probably inevitable, I
eventually turned to art. I grabbed my sketchbook yesterday and drew up
"(Not Quite) Pseudo Self Portrait 18: Proxy Time". And I finished and
went, "I need to share this". And, so, here we are. I have pulled the
sketch up in Krita and spent two hours making it all nice and digital
for your viewing enjoyment. (Incidentally, as stated, it wasn't pseudo
self portrait 18. That was drawn earlier today.)
Just as things to note: 1) As I mentioned, I don't know a lot about
creepypasta stuff or the whole "proxy" thing. I literally was working
stuff out on the fly as I went through those quizzes. I don't know if
I've fucked anything up with this image, but if I have, just remember
that I haven't a clue about a lot of this stuff. 2) I'm honestly quite
proud of that background. It looks so much better than some of the other
backgrounds I've attempted. 3) I didn't quite know what to do with blood
splatters or my colour scheme. The colour scheme I just ended up going
with black and crimson, though I probably could have done better. For
the blood splatters, I tried to work out a story of what was going on in
the image and how it would lead to any given splatter, but that made my
head hurt so I decided that I would have the one on the hand (ofc), have
one on the mask, and the rest is just, um, hidden by my black
clothes. 4) In case you're curious, the mask is a full-face respirator
with the eye shield painted. I kinda like the gas mask aesthetic is has
to it. 5) Fuck hands. I hate drawing hands. In the original sketch, I
just used the fact it was a rough pencil sketch to hide how bad the left
(stage left, not your left) hand was, but I couldn't do that here. I was
kinda just gonna make it a fucked up demon hand, but eventually, I
messed with it enough to get it to look decent, which is good, because
as far as I'm aware, proxies are human, so a demon hand wouldn't exactly
be fitting. Finally, 6) No, I do not have a clever name for this
proxysona. (That's what I'm calling it. A proxysona. Would "proxy OC"
work? Sure. But I like proxysona better. Besides, it gets the "me"-ness
of it across, kinda like "fursona"). So yeah. If I develop her further,
I probably ought to start there, but, for now, she doesn't really need
one.
So, yeah! There you go. My proxysona. Now, if you excuse me, I've got an
edgy teenage girl phase to start getting into. I never got to have one
due to never being a teenage girl and debatably not being edgy, so I'm
glad I get to now.
Me!
Drawn 18 February 2021
It's me! Yes, me! The femby behind the screen! If you've read the little
explanation of me on the homepage, you've
probably already guessed this is Kat. And, yes. This is Kat. This is
what I really look like, piercings and fox ears aside. I will have my
ears one of these days, damn it! Piercings on the other hand, not so
much. I have roughly a year and a half if I want those. After that, I
enter nursing school and am not allowed to have them (aside from a small
earlobe piercing). But yeah. That's my hair. Those are my glasses.
That's roughly my face. I own that necklace. I own that shirt (which
happens to have The Lick just off screen). Yeah. It me.
I drew this following a discussion of drawing tablets. Someone asked
about drawing tablets for beginners, and
someone else suggested an
old thinkpad as the best option, which reminded me that I have an old
tablet thinkpad. So, I went and fired up photoshop CS2 running on
Windows XP tablet edition on my old thinkpad X41 tablet and drew this.
Arcade (Boxing) Ahri
Drawn 18 September 2020
Alternate Title: Why Trying to Fight a Kitsune is Generally a Bad
Idea
For a while, I've wanted a decent (nude) model of
Ahri for use in SFM, but, unfortunately, I haven't managed to find
anything. So, wanting an image like this with Ahri, I went back to what
I knew: drawing. And, thus, this image was born, in which Arcade Ahri,
having beaten the absolute shit out of you, taunts you one last time
before putting you to sleep.
Well, I say "you". This was born out of horny masochism. The one
behind the POV was always supposed to be me.
SOCIALIST TEETH
Drawn July 2020
Can you believe this became a thing because some idiot thought it was a
thing? It's beautiful.
So, yeah. Socialist teeth. Do you like them? They're nice and bitey.
T. Fucking. Pose.
Drawn May 2020
Based off of an old, since deleted toot by Srol. You can blame him for
this. Sure, I drew it, but it's all his fault.
Alternate title: Tee-pose
It's my turn.
Drawn February 2020
When you last saw Lorelai, she was a pathetic excuse of a boxer. Her
skills were mediocre at best, but worse was the fact that she looked like
she belonged in a hospital, not in the ring fighting in front of
thousands. Persistent as she may have been, it didn't take much to put
her anorexic ass down for the count.
This time, though, was different. Of course she'd gotten better. Given
three years, you'd hoped she'd gotten better. But she also
changed physically. Gone was the Lorelai who looked too anorexic to even
hope to fight. This time, she'd bulked up. Not to mention the change in
her affect. Last time, she smiled the whole time, even as she took blow
after blow. You sill remember the smirk as she got up from her fifth
knockdown and, with more confidence than she had any right to
have, simply said, "My turn~..." This time, the smile had been replaced
by a grim look. The look of someone here for revenge.
The first few rounds seemed easy enough. By the fourth round, you'd
already opened a cut on her left eye and started to swell the right one
shut. But, as you watched the foxgirl rise from her fifth knockdown and
wipe the blood from her face, an ominous chill ran down your spine. The
look on her face, the way she stared you down...it sent the message loud
and clear.
"You've had your fun. But now? It's my turn.
~~~
A few years back, I drew a boxing foxgirl. My grasp of anatomy was poor,
and in hindsight, she looks horribly anorexic. Hardly fit to fight.
Despite that, she carried a strong air of confidence. Though she had a
black eye and a bloody nose, she was still smirking with a look that said
"My turn~" (or, at least, that was the hope). Fast forward, and I decided
to give her another piece. My grasp of anatomy may not be excellent, but
it's much better than it was, and it shows. Were you to compare
the older image to this one, you can see the
improvement. I also changed her demeanor a bit. No longer the smiling,
cocky foxgirl she was, she's now gotten serious. She's got one goal and
one goal only: knock. you. out.
Also, I went for a more futuristic ring, because why not? Laser barriers
ftw.
Combat fox
Drawn Jul 2019
Not many folx IRL know this about me, but I really like combat sports,
in particular MMA and kickboxing. I've wanted to take one of those up
for a while (for more than just exercise), but between the effort it'd
take, the brain damage I'd take, and the money a gym membership would
take, I never have. I drew this to commorate this small fact about me.
Kicking a fútbol
Drawn June 2019
I had recently bought a football on a whim and started playing with it.
I really enjoyed it and decided to draw Aura playing around with a
football herself.
Pride
Drawn March 2019
A pride avatar I drew back in 2019. The bisexual flag should be
self-explanatory. The flag on the shirt was supposed to be the
anarcho-syndicalist flag, but I think I accidentally got the ancom flag
on accident (which is fine given the fact I'm now an ancom). The bandana
was supposed to be the bigender flag, but I'm pretty sure it's actually
an intersex pride flag, which is unfortunate because I'm not intersex.
Fine, You Win~
Drawn March 2019
It seems Kaylee and Cora found themselves pitted against each other,
and Cora came out on top. Ah, well. I'm sure she'll make up for the
damage done somehow...
Winter Stroll
Drawn March 2019
We, sadly, didn't get any snow the winter this was drawn. But, I wanted
to draw Aura on a lovely stroll through the snow, so here it is.
Fight on
Drawn March 2019
An image I drew shortly after Beaten, but not quite broken, with
Aura training up for the next battle. After all, just because I made it
out of my last bout with depression alive, doesn't mean I'm happy with
just that. I will win. I must win.
This will not conquer me. I will conquer it.
Beaten, but not quite broken
Drawn March 2019, originally sketched February 2019
"What? You think you've won?"
"Not yet. But do you really think you can beat me?"
"Heh. Watch me, ya bastard."
"Look at yourself–"
"Yeah, what about me?"
"*Grk*!"
"What's wrong? Scared?"
"Hmph...Fine. Have it your way."
Aura knew he was in for a tough fight. He'd already been continually
beaten down. The fact that he kept getting up was a miracle more than
anything. But he knew he had to keep fighting. His foe had nothing to
lose: whether he won or lost, he'd die anyways by the time this fight
was over. But for Aura, it was a matter of life and death. And, so,
despite the cuts, despite the bruises, despite the pounding headache and
the likely concussion, he stood up once more. He'd prop himself up in
the corner if he had to, but he wasn't going down without a fight.
He was going to win. He had to win.
Not just for himself, but for everyone he loved.
"Well, then! Bring it the fuck on!
A new fursona arrives!
Drawn in late 2018
There are a few of these. To start...
First, we had this. This was my first attempt at a fox fursona to
replace Fenris. As you can tell, my genderfluid ass was feeling
particularly male and especially gay, hence the shirt. I honestly kinda
like that shirt. I kinda want one. Anyways, he didn't live long...
As I remembered the enderfox concept. Indeed, you may notice that in
some places, I use the username "awesomeenderfox". I'd never actually
drawn an enderfox. Well, here we go! I recoloured the first attempt into
an enderfox. This actually lived for a couple of months until a colour
shift and a flash of inspiration for a name led to the Aura we now know
and love. (As a fun tidbit, Aura wasn't actually supposed to be that
blue originally. Xe was supposed to be more purple, but my laptop's
display has some wonky colours and so that blue ended up hewing pretty
close to Lucario colours. In the aftermath, I ended up having the flash
of "Aura Vulpes" for the name, in no small part inspired by the Lucario
similarity. Ah, how the things we love come to be...)
I also drew a female version. I wasn't entirely sure what to do with
the shirt. Also, yes. I fucked up the trans flag. I tried to do it from
memory and ended up with the wrong order for the blue and pink. Also,
because of the laptop display wonkery, both the pink and blue are more
purple than they should be. Lesson learned, worked from reference and
use the eyedropper for pride flags. Yep.
As a further fun fact, you may notice they (and early Aura) sport a
different hairstyle than modern Aura. At the time, my hair was fully
grown out, and these images reflect that. However, through the first
half of 2019, I didn't do the greatest job taking care of my hair,
kept it in a ponytail, and the ponytail ended up matting up really
badly. Finally, in August, I took a chance, which you may remember if
you were following me on the Fediverse at that time. I cut the ponytail
off and finally cut it into the side shave I'd been wanting to try but
was too scared to. Honestly, I have no regrets. I think it came out
so well. So, yes, more fun facts.
Is a cryptofox
Drawn sometime around the first instance of the fox fursona
Fun fact: This is a bit of a psuedo-self-portrait. (Speaking of which,
I have an entire series of those I should show y'all one of these days.)
I'm not quite sure what's happening here? But, hey. She cute, I guess.
If your curious why it's titled "Is a cryptofox", "cryptofox" is a name
I was toying with at the time and that's how this got titled. *shrug*
Fenris Helmsúlfr
Drawn around mid-2018
Hey, look, it's my second fursona, Fenris! I like this design.
Incidentally, you may have seen him before. I posted some art of him in
this iteration and his boyfriend having some fun with the fact Fen's a
robot. Anyways, yeah. I wanted to design a robot wolf fursona and this
was the design that won out. I really should bring him back.
Wynter, Casual
Drawn sometime in 2018?
A bit of a casual image of Wynter here, chilling. Not much to say here.
She does wear glasses, yes. Generally wears soft contacts in the cage,
but can still see well enough to do without. Another shirt here I really
like, too. I like that. I should get a proper design of that going.
Dark Elf Rogue
Drawn sometime in 2018
A dark elf I drew in 2018. Somewhat inspired by my Kirai, especially the
tattoos. I've used her as an avatar once on an account where I was using
the name "Aeris Ashryver", so I guess that's her name?
Okay, a couple of things. One, no, the Kirai are not a standard night elf
species. Actually, they're a light elf species who actually ended up
nocturnal due to how damaging UV can be for them, a trait they share with
all other northern elves. Two, that last name, Ashryver, might sound a
little familiar. It was originally a placeholder. I needed a last name for
"Aeris" and just threw in the middle name of Aelin Galathinius from the
Throne of Glass series. Eventually, it ended up growing on me, so I just
kept it for lack of anything better. So, if it sounds familiar, you've
probably read the Throne of Glass books. Three, no, neither Aeris nor
Ashryver are Kirai names. That's not Kirai names, and they wouldn't be
rendered that way if they were anyways. (If you're curious, it'd be more
along the lines of "Eris Acraiver", as I pronounce it and Kiraian
phonology permits. I'll post the grammar, etc. here one day, don't worry.)
Ryver and Wynter
Drawn in 2018? Maybe?
Hey, look, it's one of the few digital images I've done of Ryver and
Wynter. Ah...
Okay, so, you may know Wynter. I've had an image
(Casual Wynter, above) in my FurAffinity
scraps for a while with her. She's an MMA fighter, a physics major, and
a character I came to love quite well. A character, I am so, ahem,
attached to for reasons I'd rather not go into that I actually have
plans to get the same tattoo she has. She is probably one of my most
precious characters. I need to do some more art of her for y'all.
Ryver is her girlfriend and, fun fact, my first fursona! This is her
original design. I've since redesigned her in some ways. For instance,
in this iteration, she's actually partially paralyzed in her left arm
due to nerve damage. Nowadays, her right arm was amputated. So, really,
that hand on Wynter's waist shouldn't be there, but this is old art.
I should really do more art of her as well.
As for this image, I'm not 100% sure about what's going on. I think the
idea was it's after Wynter fought, hence the black eye. But why is she
wearing both jeans and her gloves then? Ah, to interrogate the intent
of my past self. Anywho.
We will resist
Drawn late 2017
Damn. This feel pretty liberal. Like, #Resist? Really? Gods. Otherwise,
I think the image speaks for itself. Fun fact: the girl on the right
doesn't actually exist. Not entirely sure why I didn't draw Jade. But
I didn't. Then again, the girl on the left technically doesn't either
anyways. After all, I abandoned Ivy long ago.
The Ivy series
Drawn through 2017 and early 2018
Fun fact: I used to want to use the name Ivy. I was gonna go by Ivy
Collins. Ultimately, I ended up changing my mind for Katlynn, but yeah.
Another fun fact: I used to use art a lot for working out
what I wanted to look like as I transitioned. Here's a few digital
examples:
Here's the first. This design is interesting for me. This wasn't my
first time drawing it, with the design originating in
"Pseudo-Self-Portrait 4". That image was...emotional...for me. It was
the first time I looked at one of those and went "Yeah. This is me. This
is what I want." This was the translation of that into a digital piece
and, honestly, I still kinda see what I want in this.
This one was basically just an update to the first. Not much has
changed, and there's not much to say about it.
And, one last one, another in the line of "images related to my love of
combat sports". Not entirely proud of this. Both the anatomy and gloves
are very whack, but it's still a fun concept. It's me, ready to kick
your ass! What's not to love about that? (Unless you want to kick my
ass, in which case...uh...It's me, ready to get my ass kicked!)
Honestly, I wish I could dye my hair that shade of green, but I can't.
Or at least, I don't know if I'll be able to at this point. It'll depend
on where I end up as a phlebotomist. Maybe some places will have a
loose enough dress code, but yeah. Shame. By the time I'll have the
money to dress like this, I might not be able to. Sad.
Just a bit slow
Drawn around mid-2017
Our poor fighter on the right has found herself up against a much
quicker opponent and has taken quite the beating for it. She's already
sporting a nasty black eye, and the way her eyes are rolling back into
her head, well, I think we may be we witnessing the knockout blow.
I kinda like these characters. I should name them. Maybe add a bit of
story here for this? I dunno. Maybe later. I should do more with them
though. Anyone up for a fight?
Sylvanas, Queen of the Ring
Drawn in 2016 or 2017 some time
An old image I did. Don't be fooled, my grasp on shading wasn't great,
as the gloves and ring hint. The only reason Sylvanas looks as good as
she does is that I referenced a Curse avatar. Still, I guess it came out
okay. Certainly not my worst piece.
sELFie
Drawn spring 2017
A kinda bad pun and a kinda cute elf gal. I started this one and mostly
finished it back in high school, before leaving it to rot with the
desire to properly shade it. By the way, check out that laptop. That's
not suspicious. Let's see here. Form is suspiciously similar to a 2014
Dell Inspiron. It's running Arch Linux with i3. Green landscape
background. Music player is playing Wolfgun's Road to Jupiter.
Hmm... That's just my laptop! (Or, well, my laptop at the time.) Just
who is this elf gal?!
Honestly, I'm not sure. Maybe it was me, maybe it wasn't. I honestly
have no clue.
Sinon
Drawn December 2016
Okay, this is gonna take some explanation. So, for a while now, sincere
if a bit not great art has held a special spot for me. Cringe culture is
dead and I like seeing people try to make something that they like. So,
around november or december 2016, I stumbled across a Fallout: Equestria
fanfic. It wasn't great. Very rough around the edges. But I kinda
enjoyed it. The story wasn't all that bad. Kinda good, really. Needed
some heavy proofreading/editing, but that's fairly minor, honestly.
Anyways, I enjoyed it, and I thought I might help the author out a bit.
The "cover" of the story was a pony maker pony that looked...not great.
So, for Christmas that year, I'd gotten a new drawing tablet and the
first thing I drew with that was this! The sad ending to this story is
that I never actually sent it to the author. Soon enough, the story
was gone from FiMfiction. Sad. Anyways, author of that story, if you're
seeing this, I hope you appreciate this, I hope you're doing well, and
I hope you never gave up on writing. Know that at least one person out
there enjoyed your story. <3
My turn~!
Drawn back in, like, 2015 or something
A piece I drew a few years back based off of this pixel art piece I'd
done:
Unfortunately, in the jump from pixel art to drawing, the anatomy got
much worse. She looks pretty anorexic here. By the way, notice that
super harsh perspective? Yeesh. Like, it's done right, but has the focus
points in waaaay too close.
Monster Warlord fanart
Drawn in, like, 2015
So, I used to play this game called Monster Warlord. It's a gacha game,
and not a great one. Say what you will about Genshin, but at least it's
basically just Breath of the Wild but gacha. It at least has fucking
gameplay. But, hey, I enjoyed MW. It was okay, I guess. While I played
it, I decided to do a couple of pieces of fanart in Colors 3D. Here
they are:
First up, we have Lucifer. I wish I could say more about these
characters, but I barely remember anything, and I don't think they were
well fleshed-out anyways. Cool design, though.
And, here we have Lilith. Also pretty cool design.
Turret pixel art
Drawn around Christmas 2014 or 2015
As a fun fact, this image originated in Golly, that Conway's game of
life program! I drew out what was essentially 1-bit turret pixel art.
I was at my grandparents' for christmas at the time, and my cousin,
himself a Portal fan, saw it and told me I should flesh them out. Maybe
I could put them on a shirt, you know? So, I did! It's not perfect, as
I decided to do it in Photoshop, using a, like, 25 pixel square brush.
You can see some of the discontinuities. But I really like the design.
They're pretty cool. Incidentally, I never did put them on a shirt.
Should I?
